Venus' online micro-journal

Time goes by so fast. my last entry wasn't even that deep smh.

Anyways.. lately i've been in a state of doom. I don't feel sad at all. If I could label it, I feel like "IDGAF". Maybe it's because im turning 18 in a month-ish (ugh). Tbh I don't want to celebrate my 18th at all. or any age after that. Maybe 19 because it sounds pretty. 19, 22, and 30.

On another note, once i get a degree im leaving this city FOREVER!!! Not immediately tho, i'm not insane. Maybe i'll give myself a year or so. If i get a boyfriend maybe longer but i won't spend my 20's in the same place for too long.

yes okay! bye again xo

hi to the first entry of 25'! sorry its so emo.

If I had all the money in the world, I would spend it collecting every degree on earth. I want to go somewhere new. I don't even know anymoreeefdkj

Times like these, I wish I was 18 and could drive. I'd buy 10 packs of cigarettes and chain-smoke.

oh my god i cant get a break!ianjzkncesip bye, #IWANTTODISAPPEARFOREVER!!!!!!!!!

2024 felt like all the wishes I had in 2021 came true except I forgot to wish carefully. This year was so hell. Yea, im grateful for all this but i wish i could go back and change a couple of things. I wish i made different choices. I'll never forget sixteen. It was one of the best years of my life. Id redo 16, but to redo 17 you'd have to pay me a whole lot.

The only good thing this year was seeing my mom after 5 years. And also the insane amount of freedom I got. Everything else sucked. I can't wait for 2025 to roll around because it gives me the feeling of a brand new, fresh start. (even if everything that sucked about 24' will rollover to 25' because it doesn't just go away on its own).

I also started a new journal for 2025. And theres this force that's preventing me from doing anything until then because I want all the trinkets and things I do to count for '2025' but that's just a weird rule to uphold. Like, I haven't watched a new movie or begun a new book because I wan't to write it down for 2025. Does that make sense? Ok, anyway. Bye 4 now.

There's not much to see here for now. I got lazy and used Repth's layout, found here. >>Repth<<

Images used here/across the site have all been found on pinterest, linked on the main page!

ok bye.